twenty.

1] from my experiences with you , i have learned to take shit slow with guys. i don't even know why i acted like that with you ! i never have....it's not even that i was like so infatuated with you , it was just lust. i realize now what i should have realized then; that i was sooo wrapped up in you & all the shit you said to me. it all worked, and i feel used. there was not even one bit of passion from you , did you even like me ? now you just hit me up saying you miss me and want to see me ? bullshit. i bet you need some sex or something. but i don't regret you & me though, you taught me alot, even though you may not realize it.

2] i'm just getting to know you now & i think you're cool peoples and what not but you do some stupid shit sometimes. DON'T say you're gonna do something and then don't do it. i didn't see ATCQ and i'm tight. i think you just need to learn , and hopefully you will with time as you get older. i think that you do realize some stupid shit you do too. just try to fix that dude.

3] i'm looking foward to these next months and what you may offer me. these past few weeks alone have been great...hopefully it will last. i like you alot and i hope you don't fuck me over. cause then i'm gonna have to kill you >:]

4] you stay sucking my best friend and it's pathetic. STOP RUNNING YOUR MOUTH. & if you're reading this ...then you're slobbing my dick too .

5] i feel as though you and me are off to a clean slate now. maybe that phase we had of silence was for the better....or it might hurt us and we'll never be how we were again. but i guess i'll find out in the future. i realize i have to be careful with you and what i say. i might be wrong when i say this but i think you still have some sort of feelings left for me , especially since seaside . i don't want to lead you on. i know you love me alot, and i appreciate it, i love you too. no one is gonna take me away from you. don't talk to me about this.

6] you make me so angry. you're like the only person that can make me so angry i could just cry. i wish we were closer. i wish my relationship with you would just be......easy. cause right now it feels like we're both stepping on eggshells and if we crack one, we don't give a fuck if we crack them all. holy shit, have we been through problems. i don't like when you say that you never thought that i was gonna turn out like i did. FUCK YOU. you act like i'm having sex on your bed, doing drugs and hitting you. all i do is talk back and you freak. i just wanna try , but it seems like it really is too late. is it ? can you just be there and not bitch at me cause my fucking socks are on the floor?

7] how much can a person change for the worse? i still do not know, you stay amazing me. we were soooooo close before you got your head gassed, you actually spoke to me about shit. i respected you so much, but now it's getting harder and harder for me to do that ....plus defend you. every negative thing people seem to see in you , i refused to see but you dead ass made too many stupid choices and done too much stupid shit for me not see it . who the fuck do you think you are? that experience you went through last summer was supposed to make you humbler, more responsible and respectful to people around you. it was supposed to make you a man. it seems like you came back as a boy. fucking with her mind...acting tough and cool. look who you're left with now. your baunt girl and a bunch of myspace bitches on your dick . you still have a place in my heart though, no matter what. i just need to see a drastic change in you as a person.

::realizes she's not gonna reach 20 people::

8] there's so much ..umm i don't know ..undefined tension between us. i haven't spoken to you in weeks now. i know i don't mind talking and hanging out and you probably don't either but the thing is , you make shit uncomfortable for me when you say things about the past, and how it was in that past. you should really get over that , i mean i know it might take a long time but still idk....you probably think i'm such a bitch & that i have no heart , but i'm just being realistic, logical, & honest.

9] i miss you. we used to call each other almost everyday and chill so much more last summer. this summer you seem ghost. what's good with that?

10] i'm proud of you. finally you are doing what you should have done months ago.

okay...so i didn't quite reach the twenty people , but i got half.

it's 4:52 am, and i'm finally done.

if you think you're up here, do me a favor and dont be like "glori , i know i'm def. # 9!"

don't question me either, please.

& to the people that read this that may not know me too well,

try not to judge.

you don't know the whole stories of me and these people,

so don't act like you do.

just read it and w o n d e r......